21st Birthday

Monday, October 05, 2015

Thoughts: I was trying to think of a cool post for my 21st birthday. I wanted to do 21 things, a list of some sort. But I can't think of anything. Perhaps 21 things I am happy to have accomplished. This would be in light of a small quarter life crisis I had yesterday. It was probably a mix of too much caffeine and lack of sleep, but it definitely had an element of pre birthday blues. I feel much better today and I (surprisingly) do feel older. Not that I somehow matured overnight, but in retrospect and bringing a year's worth of growth into consideration. To be honest I can't think of 21 possible noteworthy accomplishments. For inspiration, I am listening to someone's mediocre 21st Birthday playlist, but it's not working.

This is a sentiment I've only shared with my close friends, but I feel it is appropriate to share now. I don't even have a word for it and I'm sure some of you may be able to relate. Or maybe not. The thing is sometimes when I see other people, whether friends or acquaintances, accomplish something, I feel it brings me down. I am happy for them and am always supportive, but it will make me reflect on the pace of my own life and what I am missing. Even if it has nothing to do with my interests or something I'd ever want to do, it will get to me. It may include a bit of envy, but never malicious and it is not the point of my feelings. It is more of an internal struggle with myself. Since I know I suffer from that, I work on it. I'm slowly understanding that we don't have to compare ourselves to others because we are not the same and everyone is succesful in their own way.  . . . Are they? LOL, just kidding we are. This is a quote on beauty that I am remixing: someone else's success is not the absence of your own. 


Last night was so eventful, I was woken up at midnight and surprised with gifts, flowers, kisses, and happy birthdays. I entered the room with my eyes still half closed, I couldn't open them for 3 minutes. Not because I was sleeping in my contacts. . . . but because it was bright. . . . . . I got some really wonderful gifts. Which it is worth mentioning that wonderful is quite the understatement. Okay I will share, one of my gifts was a new phone, which by the way, who do they think they are LOL. Now I know material things can never be an accurate testament of love or friendship, but I think it says something when someone goes beyond what is minimally necessary. Above and beyond. I am really enjoying it so far, I forgot how it felt to have a smooth screen LOL. I also downloaded this cute robot theme for it and it is killing me. I love it. Thank you. I got a few more memorable gifts and a bouquet of flowers (that I did not miss in spilling on myself). We are having dinner tonight so I am looking forward to this evening.

edit: we had dinner at a Japanese restaurant, and everyone knows that is my drug. It was so delicious and HD knows how to order LOL. We had all sorts of dishes. I loved the company at the dinner table and we had cake! GUYS. It was my dream cake. It was simple, circular, frosted PINK, SUGAR PRINCESS CROWNS, AND IT HAD PINK SPRINKLES. I am being so serious, this is exactly the cake I would have wanted if I would have chosen. Like I said at the dinner table, sprinkles are so overrated that they became underrated. And if that is not my style I don't know what is. Overall, beautiful beautiful birthday. <3

Earlier, I was talking to an old friend I haven't spoken to for a while. He sent me birthday wishes and we caught up. He asked me what I was doing and where I was. After telling him, he said so you just moved there randomly? And I'm like. . .  yes, I guess I did. 
I am sure you all are tired of hearing the same old emotions I continue to express, but I can't help myself. It's an odd feeling being somewhere you didn't predict even five months before. Not even a small transition, but something as out of this world as this. I've said it before and I will say it again, coming to Oman (in a situation more than visiting, which I would've enjoyed anyways) was an absolute dream. Something I predicted would be near in the future, in a setting where I live to 100, but not this close. Wherever I am, I look outside, the buildings, the streets, the sea and my mind is just absolutely blown. I don't even know how this happened, but it did and I am euphoric. I love Oman. 

Later I will post more about Europe and the Expo. Then after, a $$$$ post. 

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